spring break

involves

working

enjoying nice moments solo


waiting for her to come back


planning for events and trips

neck pains gone..and i'm

lookin up

update

school: going pretty decent....happy anxious nervous

social life: little to nothing. want to meet new people. tired of all of this nothing. i want to move far away from here. im ready for change and a lot of it.

love life: incredible


family: ignorant as usual...but they do me soilds sometimes. but im an ass to them...when i shouldnt always be...but i feel justification for a lot of it. maybe thats my own ignorance kicking in.

MONEY: sucks ....i have quite a bit of fines i need to pay off...im never allowing this to happen again...because i did allow it. money is by far by biggest and clearest problem. time to hustle!

im reading a nice book right now....the god delusion. its not like everything else i hear with people and their athiest views.. its respectful and not just downing everything....why get on the same level of the people you disagree with?



i want to educate myself more and more...


love is so powerful

hatred is so powerful



but i think you can balance them out

cause i likez whenz i smileee

so happy

and not blind anymore


if worse came to worse maybe id be able to make myself happy.


i love the path im on ...i never want to reach the end

yesterday

san diego and green bay lost.......puke


bothered.

didnt want that. things are now understood.


&

bad things said later that night
irrational on both sides

things cleared up...shits squashed


TODAY:


feelin betta...much

good day

had my 1st emt- first responders class today.

i felt like i did okay.



there was a different instructor in there and he was awesome. he was telling us stories about stuff he did/ experienced since working in EMT.
it was pretty tite.


i went from anxious to eager

boo booski

just plain awesome